Smitten

I love men.  I love many men, all at once or sometime one by one.  Mind you I'll fall for a girl just the same.  I'm all about the person all in all.

Why, why, why do I find my self so easily smitten with men.  All right I'll get to the point, I just had a wonderful dinner with a wonderful person.  Actually a rather cute boy, who is sweet, and has a wonderful smile, a gentleman.  I like his thoughts, his view on the world, on people, in general.  He is good at listening and is interested.  So I'm smitten, I want to know everything about him, it's an addiction.  A uncontrollable desire towards a person.  You know how you can regret not doing something, well I would rather regret doing something then never knowing.  Life is to short not to just go for it.  But this leaves me not wanting to control my desires.  When I like a person, I want a person.  This should so stop, because the person tends to have a girlfriend, or no desires to share.  

It isn't fare to say that I haven't had the smart talk meeting and then actually been asked on a date to lead to a relationship.  But as one could tell, it didn't lead to the ultimate goal, companionship, someone to share with my whole life with, someone to support each other.  So in my ideal world I am forever seeking my other half, my right leg.  This all leads to me clinging to anyone I click with.

Unhealthy? I don't know, but it leaves me generally disappointed.